Well, it's safe to say that I haven't blogged in ages. And, of course, I just got dumped. I know what you're thinking, "Oh okay, so Krista only blogs about crappy break ups." Well, false! Because I don't intend to use this blog to air out my thoughts and emotions about the most recent break up. To be honest, not a bone in my body is mad at Kevin and I have nothing bad to say about him. He is a phenomenal young man, and someday I hope to be the very best of friends with him.
So, as a disclaimer, this continuance of my blog will NOT be a sappy, heart-wrenching, unrequited love kind of thing. Rather, this is a documentation of what God has been showing me as of late. Ever since I got dumped, the Lord has been drawing me in closer to him, and it's honestly been absolutely wonderful! He has definitely shown me that I am not ready to be in a relationship yet because I can't seem to be this close with him unless I'm single. Someday, I hope He'll make me ready and willing to be close with him and be in a romantic relationship simultaneously. But, until then, it's just me and God.
Today I've been reading Romans 9. The part that really sticks out to me is as follows:
"Even though the Gentiles were not trying to follow God’s standards, they were made right with God. And it was by faith that this took place. 31 But the people of Israel, who tried so hard to get right with God by keeping the law, never succeeded. 32 Why not? Because they were trying to get right with God by keeping the law instead of by trusting in him."
Wow, have I been getting this wrong or what? How often do we attempt to grow closer to the Lord by stopping our sinning? For whatever reason we think that, maybe if we get stop sinning so much, we'll automatically get closer to Christ again! Man, you guys, what are we thinking? We all know that's not how it works. We sin, we suck at not sinning, that's the yuckiness of our sinful nature. But, as Romans 8:9 says, we overcome the sinful nature by allowing the Holy Spirit to be in control. And we all know that we can't give over control fully without first deciding to trust. We have to come to the conclusion within ourselves that God knows just what the heck he is doing with our lives, even if we don't quite see what it is yet. Once we decide that and abandon our control to him, it is THEN that we are able to stop sinning.
Think of it like this: so often when we go to the dentist's office, we brush our teeth really well beforehand, even though we know that he is going to clean our teeth as soon as we get there. Something in us thinks that maybe we can fool him into believing that we've been taking good care of our teeth, but he's not an idiot, he knows we aren't doing as well as we should. A lot of us end up needing fillings to make up for our dental misdeeds, and the dentist is the only one who can give us those fillings and ultimately fix the damage that we've done.
You see where I'm going with this? We do this to God. We think we can clean ourselves up and then come to him spotless! It doesn't work that way. Just as the dentist sees the damage in our smiles, the Lord sees the damage on our hearts. He has to fill in the broken parts with Him, and he is the only one who can do that. It is soaking ourselves in the Lord and spending time with him that makes us spotless. In fact, the sooner we give up on trying to be clean enough to come to him, the sooner he can fix us.
So, it is my goal to trust in the Lord, let the Holy Spirit take control, and allow my heavenly Daddy to make me into the spotless daughter that he wants me to be. I urge all of you to make this your goal as well.
Well, that's all for now :) And, as always, remember;
Our God is Enough <3
Oh, PS, speaking of "dentist", here's a video that made me chuckle:
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