Enough

It's time to stop looking at my life as who I "still" am without Zach.  That was good for a time.  That was what I needed.  But now, it's time to embrace the fact that he is no longer of any consequence to who I am.  Allowing myself to continue thinking of who I "still" am makes it harder for me to leave the past behind me.  

Honestly, because of all of this, I am a mess.  I'm terrified of being walked away from.  There is a new someone special in my life, and it's not easy for me to trust that he'll stick around.  It's scary.  I mean, I gave all of myself to Zach and eventually he realized it wasn't good enough and walked away.  Maybe all of me will never be good enough for someone else.  

But here's the thing; that's not who God says I am.  I always close out this blog with the thought that "My God is Enough", but he has been whispering to me, "You are enough for me, too".  How mind boggling is that?  I, a sinner, reveling in all of my unworthiness and drowning in a sea of ungratefulness, am enough for him.  He wants all of me.  I am a beautiful mess of brokenness, and that is enough for him.  I find rest in that.

So, when we feel so unworthy, may we remember that our God is enough, and we are enough for him.